12.13.2010

Fighter

So lately I've been listening to a lot of Christina Aguilera, probably because I went and saw the movie Burlesque a couple weeks ago and fell in love with her voice once again. She has one of the most powerful voices I've heard and I often envy it, but I know without a doubt I'll never EVER sound like her :) It's a fun thought though, haha!

Well, I've been listening to one of her songs called 'Fighter' over and over again. The lyrics of the song have a lot of meaning behind them, and I've related to them in the past. But not like now....After everything I've been through the past couple years with my family, and now with a three year relationship coming to an end, I relate to the lyrics so much more. I think I've listened to this song at least a hundred times thinking to myself, "I could have definitely written this song!" Granted some of the words don't really match my feelings, but majority of the song does. Here are the lyrics....

"When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn't trust
'Cause your bluff time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out of shame

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
 
Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going around
Playing, the victim now
But don't, even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave, uh huh

After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you 

How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust, so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretended not to see the truth
You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end you'll see
You won't stop me"

I do feel like a fighter. I feel so strong and I know that has only come from the Lord answering my prayers. I feel like I'm becoming wiser, I will not compromise again, nor will I settle for anything less than the best. There are days that I'm a bit feisty about the situation and today is definitely one of those days, but not a day goes by that I don't thank the Lord for revealing the truth and Himself to me over and over again.

I really have no idea who reads this blog or if whoever reads it can relate to me in any way, but all I can say is that I know what hurt feels like, betrayal, being lied to, all those not fun things that happen in life, specially from the people who you love the most (or who say they love you and would never hurt you), but the Lord will never give you anything you can't handle and it's the times that we feel like our world is falling apart at the seams, that we are made that much stronger and yes, we are made Fighters! Fighters in this world that is cruel and unjust, but if you know the Lord, then you have an amazing power on your side and He will never let you down. Ever.

Hear the song for yourself....it's not the official music video, but that's really good too...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RBOJpIwF47Y


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